Archive for February, 2005

Cure for Common Cold

It’s amazing how a certain comfort food seems to just cure you of whatever sickness you may have.

Bacon and rice. Cherry Coke. Mango. My miracle cure.

Yes. I fried up another batch of bacon today, the full 4-strip treatment, for early lunch and early dinner. I buy fresh bacon by the pound from a local butcher shop, yielding about 12-16 strips, and freeze them in 4-strip portions.

So I chopped up the bacon and fry them until crispy. I then toss them on a bed of hot steamed rice. Usually, I’d just sprinkle ground pepper over the top and sometimes a shake of cayenne, but nowadays I dust this plate with Emeril’s Bayou Blast seasoning. (Thanks Shane!) Bam!

Thai bacon is a little bit different that bacon here too. I guess it’s in the meat. Thai bacon seems to be more meaty and less smokey.

Rice and bacon used to be the only thing my oldest brother, Ake, would eat as a child. I remembered. Since he’s the big brother, the rest of us started to demand the same thing. That is when mom and grandmother busted out with the dad and fried dried shrimps story.

If you wander into an oriental market, you’d run into this culinary ingredient: the salted, dried mini shrimps. You can use out of the package, but you can also throw them in oil and cook them up nice and crispy. That was my dad and uncle’s preferred meal of their youth. Fried dried shrimps and rice. They wouldn’t eat anything else, grandmother said. And look at them now. Do you want to grow up and be scrawny and short, well, shrimps like your dad and your uncle?

The moral of the story was that we should eat other things, preferably more veggies, not just one kind of food. But we did listen. I was already the shortest girl in class. I wanted to be tall too! How naive of me. Then again, at age 5 you wouldn’t know anything about your genetics disposition.

Hey. I didn’t think about it at the time. If eating the mini dried shrimp turned you into a scrawny, short person, wouldn’t eating bacon turn me into a big fat pig? So there’s a truth to the story after all!

Doesn’t matter. I still LOVE bacon. Love, love, love, love. And it’s the only thing that would make me feel home again. Well, that and mango.

Nothing is like Thai mango though. I mean, the Mexican mango I bought pre-cut from the store is sweet, and enough to satisfy my craving for mango. But it just doesn’t have the same flavors as Thai mangos. The Nam Dokmai variety of mango, meaning “flower nectar”, is king. It’s aromatic, sweet, and ultra juicy. It would be impossible to sell them pre-cut like this because the juice will run everywhere. Perfect compliment to the sticky rice cooked in coconut milk and sugar. Ooooooooooooooooooooooooh

Excuse me. It appeared I just drooled onto the keyboard.

Drool. That’s a good sign. I AM hungry again, this is a definite good sign that my body is winning the fight with this cold.

First comes the sneezes which could be mistaken for allergies. If Benedryl doesn’t do the trick, then it’s a cold. Stuffy nose and loss of appetite comes next. Then it’s ravenous part 1. I’d suddenly feel a pang of hunger, and would eat and eat and eat. My body is preparing for war it seesm. The next day, like today, I wouldn’t have an ounce of energy in me except in occasional bursts, and the appetite is gone again. When the ravenous part 2 hits, I’m through with the cold.

And I believe I am now just entering part 2. Writing about food does help expediting the process though I’m sure.

Februarium - Day 5 and Final

First of all, a shout out to Coleen and her wonderful idea! Please do keep me posted. I would love to participate again next year. Perhaps with all the right moves we can make this a national thing!

And now, the conclusion of Februarium 2005.

Day Five, February 14: Why you love.
Answer this question. “Why do you love?”

As far as I remember, I have always loved.

I love my parents. I love my brothers. I love my cousins. I love my grandmother. I love my nanny. I love my room. I love my stuffed animals. I love Snoopy. I love the piano. I love my friends. I love bacon and rice. I love this. I love that.

Love is truly all around when I was growing up, and that made an impression for the rest of my life.

Asking me why I love is like asking me why I breathe. To stay alive.

Love is such a wonderful thing. It’s like a gift that gives itself back double in pure joy. When I love someone or something, by loving them alone gives me happiness. If by loving them make them happy, and even better yet, they love you back, it is the most glorious feeling.

I guess in a way, love is a drug for me. I’m an addict. I love to love. I wonder if I have devalued the love I give because I love so much. I hope not. I may love generously but never for granted.

If I don’t love, something is horribly wrong with me. That was why I quit my last job. The condition was so horrible. Hatred and discontent slowly seeped into my soul, slowly poisoning me. It was that bitter loathing feeling that smothered me, hindering my ability to love, and hence I couldn’t be happy. Now that I am rid of that condition, I have regained myself, and I am once again, full of love.

I take my love so seriously that I would unleash a wrath of an equal passion on whoever would harm people I love, or betray my love. My love can go unreturned; it has never been a problem. In fact, I do expect sometime that people won’t return such love. But if the love I give was mocked, or worse, taken for granted, then you have a whole lot of trouble coming your way. All 100 lbs. of me carries a fury with the strength of a thousand suns.

I’m a Scorpio. And a dragon. You figure that out before pissing me off by toying with the love I give.

I am living passionately, I guess I could say. I am trying to live life without fear, and love is a part of that. I don’t fear love, and therefore love allows me to live a fuller life.

Februarium - Day 4

Day Four, February 13: Where you’ve loved.
It’s the sex entry. Bonus points if you make it funny for the rest of us.

It was one fateful night at Brandon’s apartment, our first few nights together at his pad. Off went the light, and on went the candles. Things were getting hot and heavy.

Brandon reached for a condom from the nightstand. It was the last one. As I said, things were hot and heavy which made us extra clumsy. The next thing we knew, the condom packet went flying across the room, and landed somewhere behind the computer desk.

We did find the condom after all, but boy that would be the first time where we laughed through lovemaking.

So a few days later, I bought a box of condom, applied the wings of butterfly stickers to each individual package, put them back in the box, and gave it to Brandon.

This moment remains one of our favorite memories.

Februarium - Day 3

Day Three, February 12: When you’ve loved.
Write either a brief history of your love life, or a single story about the love of your lifetime.

I guess you can say that I have lived a crush-full life. Most of my romantic inspirations are from my dreaming about some boy whom I befriended but never took it further, or else I just never spoke to. I wrote several journal-full about these boys, all these romance unrealized, love unrequited. But one day, one man said something to me that changed my love life altogether.

Given that my serious first celebrity obsession was Tom Cruise, my taste in men has been of a non-Thai streak. Go figure, I’m married to a blue eyed white boy now.

The first crush of my life was a blonde haired, blue eyed German boy named Fabian, or Fabi. I was 12 at the time, attending a month-long international camp in Australia along with one other Thai girl, 2 boys, and a guy chaperone. CISV, Children International Summer Village, program teaches the concept of peace and acceptance among different nations. And boy did I take that to heart! Fabi had a great smile. He had these fangs that were beyond cute to me. His codename between my Thai friend and I was, obviously, Jaws. My friend would start humming the theme song when he was near. The closest I ever got to him was at the camp’s formal where all of the boys were obligated, as good friends, to make sure each girl had at least 5 names on her dance card. We danced for half of a slow song I think.

I did a lot more traveling since CISV camp, and managed to find someone to have a crush on each time. In New Zealand, it was Taka from Japan. In England, it was Rafael, a very tall, brown haired, green eyed French-Swiss who somehow reminded me of young Travolta, come to think of it now.

Things started to change during my first visit to the US when my quiet crush strategy mutated into a last-minute confession, the “Oh well what the hell, I’ll never get to see you ever again anyway, so I might as well just tell you” strategy. During the send-off party for me and the group of Thai students which arrived a month after myself, I pulled my Swiss buddy Gian aside and confessed my affection to him. Gian said thank you for a beautiful friendship I have offered and gave me a hug. He was there at the school the next morning to send us off, and he is still in touch with me after 11 years.

Then in US high school, I had a mad crush on the Boy Who Shall Remained Nameless (since SMHS people do visit here too), although he was nice to me but socially we weren’t of the same plane of existence. I was going to pull a similar confession skid with Nameless at Grad Night, but I didn’t have the guts to do it because of the whole high school caste system thing giving me a very low self esteem.

Everything I knew about myself and how I “loved” changed at the end of my college freshman summer. I spent that summer living at my friend Jen’s house, and having a crush on one of her friends, Bruce. Tall, brown haired, and a goatee, and was a lifeguard for the summer. The last night before he went off to college in Northern California, they threw a party at his house. Again, I pulled him aside and told him that I had liked him all summer, and I wished him well. He looked at me and said, “I wish you would have told me this sooner. We could’ve done something about it.” Then he kissed me on the cheek and held me for a while.

I have never been the one boys fall over themselves over. I’ve always been the short, boney, bookish tomboy no one paid attention too. Bruce was the first boy/man whoever gave me the hope that, indeed, someone could be interested in me. Someone could actually love me.

So I asked my ex-boyfriend out. And then I flirted with another friend of Jen’s until we ended up making out all night.

And finally, I asked out my now husband. And when he hinted at breaking up with me because he “wasn’t ready to be with anyone right now”, I didn’t take no for an answer. Look where we are now.

So, Bruce. I owe it to you. I don’t know if you meant what you said to me that night, that you thought we could have dated if I was to have made my intentions known earlier, or if you were just being nice to me. It doesn’t matter now, because what you said has changed everything. ?If it weren’t for you, my crush-full life would have continued being so, and I wouldn’t have known LOVE.

So, yeah, man. Thanks.

Coming Soon - MOakzBlog

I’m getting a camera phone. Finally!

In addition to this blog, I will start a moblog as well. This is going to be so much fun! Gotta start researching a friendly place to moblog though. Any suggestion?

Februarium - Day 2

Day Two, February 11: What you love
This one’s about your favorite things, or pick one thing and wax rhapsodic on it.

Yes, you can sing this to the actual song.

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Rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens. Making my music and hope no one listens.
Writing my thoughts on a paper napkin. These are few of my favorite things.

Warm bed with Snoopy and Brandon for cuddles. Sipping my wine in a tub filled with bubbles.
English Breakfast tea with some sweet Madelines. These are few of my favorite things.

Sunny side up with a helping of bacon. Freshly cooked home fries with a side of more bacon.
Collin Farrell and Brad Pitt in G-strings. These are a few of my favorite things.

Having a maid when I’m at home in Bangkok. Velvet Revolver, and Lenny without dreadlocks. Posting my pictures with hard codes and push-pins. These are few of my favorite things.

When the dog bites. When the bee stings. When I’m feeling sad. I simply remember my favorite things, and then I don’t feel so baaaad.

There are more favorite things, but I can’t possibly list everything. Here are the few leftover favorite things I couldn’t quite fit into the song:

Mini Cooper. DVD bloopers. Whistling while I work. Singing while I drive. Golden peach and Jasmine Green tea. Being geeky. Being quirky. Go Trojans. Going to movies. The Jet. The Clash. The Killers. I-Zone. NetFlix. Bend It Like Beckham. Love Actually. MacGuyver. McCartney. McMuffin with sausage. My mom’s cooking. Pueng’s cooking. (Pueng is the family maid back in Bangkok). Being home in Bangkok. Running wild in Red River with the cats. Vernie’s winged leather chair with Thumper in my lap.

Oh, and unfiltered sake. Like what I’m having right now.

Februarium - Day 1

Again, a willing participant of some writing fabulousness through my fantastic Trojan blood sister Amy.

Day One, February 10: Who you love.
This is a love letter to anyone. Or no one in particular.

Dear Brandon,

This is not so much of a love letter but a confession.

I am a closet romantic.

There. I’ve said it. I think you already know that, given that you know me all too well.

I guess I used to be a full on romantic like any typical girls are. I still lapse in to fits of romantic conniption fit after viewing a chick flick, a sweet moment in a TV show, or reading participants of Februararium’s love letters. A girly girl’s dream of a prince charming sweeping me off my feet, taking me to the bed of roses in a room filled with lit candles and a crackling fireplace, wrapping me up in a bearskin, feeding me Godiva honey-almond truffles and champagne, rubbing my weary feet, and going grocery shopping and picking up dry cleaning while I take my luxurious nap…

Anyways. Life’s lessons have helped me suppressed that need for the sweet nothing in exchange for a hearty realistic feeling.

Why should Valentine’s Day be the only day to “show our love” to each other? A vase full of flowers only means more cleaning up to do in a few days and another piece of thing we have to find space for. Candies, more jiggliness to your belly and my ass. Special dinner, one more month to getting out of debt.

I feel love when I leave the house in the morning to your sleepy kisses or your energizing pat in the butt on the way out the door. I feel love when I return from my long commute to a smile on your face from whatever it is you have been doing since you get home. I feel love from you everyday when you reach for a slumbering mass that is me in the morning to cuddle after we hit our snooze button. I feel love when we curl up on a couch for ultimate geeky Friday, watching Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, Battlestar Galactica, and yes, even switching over to Joan of Arcadia so I could catch up. I feel love when you hit the pre-heat button on my side of the electric blanket while leaving me alone to write my blog. I feel love when you introduced me to the electric blanket. I feel love when you turn up the heater to 75F so I could be comfy while you’re sweating your butt off.

I feel love because you decide to keep me after all the tribulations we have gone through lately.

Holy shit. Did I just fall of the practical-not-romantical wagon!?

I love you. You know it, and I know it. What more do we need?

Eternally yours…well, unless you achieve nirvana and leave me in the rebirth cycle all by myself.

Oakley

Status of my glass

Glass half full:

  1. Traffic has been kind to me. This 9-6 hour is working out really well.
  2. I’m getting paid to do what I love. And there’s more opportunity to grow!
  3. I’m really enjoying my classes, feeling like I’m alive again. Like I’m actually taking care of me, doing what I enjoy.
  4. I love the Main Library and thoroughly enjoy going over there to hide and read.

Glass half empty:

  1. I’m spending less time with Brandon. Not that I have seen him much lately. His being on muscle relaxer, and now the new no-soda diet (doctor’s orde), and that has put him in bed a lot sooner. We get about a 30 minute face time before he turns back to World of Warcraft or head off to bed, or before/after I go to class, or before I wind down.
  2. I’m spending less time with music. That irks me.
  3. I have no clothes left. Everything is in the wash. I have been gone every night this week we haven’t a chance to do laundry.
  4. I’m pumped full of all different kinds of antihistamine everyday and/or night for 2 weeks now. A clogged up nostril due to no sinus drainage wakes me up around 3 a.m. every night unless I drug up. Stuffy nose and sneezy through the day unless I take Alevert during my drive to work. It’s so insane. I haven’t had a lingering allergies this bad. Ever.

Music In My Life

Amy said I should fill one of these out. Who am I to disobey my Trojan sister?

Song that sounds like happy feels:

  • Walking On Sunshine - Katrina and The Waves. I related that song to the scene from “Look Who’s Talking”. Never fail to put a smile on my face.
  • From Me to You - the Beatles
  • Divine Disco Trio: You’ve Got the Best of My Love, Got to Be Real, and I Will Survive.

Earliest musical memory:

  • Mamere Angela recorded me singing “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star” to use for the next generation kindergarteners. She said I sang without an accent. Haha! But I grew up in a household filled with music of John, Paul, George, Ringo, Elvis, Karen and Richard. And other golden oldies.

Last CD you bought:

  • I am mostly a pirate. The last CDs I legitimately bought would be Tony Bennett & K.D. Lang duet and James Taylor’s September Grass.

Reminds you of school:

  • Elementary School: Last Christmas - Wham! For Christmas show, we tried to choreograph a dance routine on roller skates but the teachers wouldn’t let us use skates on stage. My brother wanted to be a rocker so there was Bon Jovi’s I’ll be there for you. British invasion of Jason Donovan and Rick Asley.
  • Junior High: Love is all around - Wet Wet Wet. Kokomo - Beach Boys. Actually, in US terms 9th grade would be high school, but back home it was junior high. Again, another stage show. It was a mother’s day musical. Kokomo played in the background as our ungrateful rag-to-riches daughter fought with her producer boyfriend and then got dumped on the side of the road. Why did we pick this song? Beat me! I think we were all in love with “Cocktail” at the time.
  • High School: Brass Monkey - Beastie Boys. Blister in the Sun - Violent Femme. Brown Eye Girl - Van Morrison. Keep them Separated - Offspring. Green Day’s Doogie. This Is How We Do It - Montel Williams. And yes, the Spice Girls’ first album.
  • College: Anything Oasis or Bush. Alanis’ Jagged Little Pill album. Dave Mathew’s Crash album. And a few odd choices here. Yanni Live at Acropolis was my paper writing music, and As I Lay Me Down by Sophie B. Hawkins because someone in my dorm ALWAYS had that song set as alarm for their afternoon nap.

Total music files on your PC:

  • My own favorite stuff: 831 files. Our common share MP3 drive: 4,823 files

Song for listening to repeatedly when depressed:

  • Carole King’s Far Away
  • Alanis’ That I Would Be Good
  • Fiona Apple’s Never is a Promise. Actually, the whole damn Tidal album would work.

Song that sounds British, but isn’t:

  • Um. Well. Early Backstreet Boys stuff sounds like British boy bands before them?

Song you love, band you hate:

  • I’m with Amy on this one: Backstreet Boys’ I want it that way.
  • Britney Spears’ Sometimes

A favorite song from the past that took ages to track down:

  • Groove Theory’s Tell Me. I didn’t know either the band or the song. One day it was on late night TV CD offer and I caught it.

Bought the album for one good song:

  • Don’t think I ever bought one for just one song. I have made it a policy before buying an album that I need to like at least 3 songs before making the purchase. Closest to that loss would be Lonestar’s Lonely Grill. Bought it for “How About Now” and “Tell Her”. The rest of the CD was crap.

Worst Song to Get Stuck in your Head

  • Gosh I had that one song from a Gap commercial stuck in my head for DAYS. Something from the 80s I think. And it turned out someone else was humming the same damn song at work too. Gosh, what song was that?? Kudos to whoever know what song I’m talking about.

Best song to dump a beer on someone’s head to, then storm out of the bar?

  • Smack my bitch up - Prodigy
  • Psycho - System of a Down (for full effect, beat bottle over head repeatedly in rhythm with “psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy, psycho, groupie, cocaine, crazy…”)
  • American Woman - Either version. Hehee.

Who should do this next?

  • Sydney, artist formerly known as Lauren

Norm, don’t say Ciao!

No no no no no no no no!!!!!

Los Angeles Times: Chow May Be About to Say Ciao

Leinart sounds like he’s kicking himself in the butt right about now as the whole coaching staff seem to have left for the NFL.

USC EXODUS

Four assistant coaches have left USC since the season ended. Norm Chow may be the fifth:

• Ed Orgeron
Old job: Defensive line coach
New job: Mississippi head coach
Years at USC: 7

• Dennis Slutak
Old job: Graduate assistant
New job: Mississippi assistant
Years at USC: 2

• Carl Smith
Old job: QB coach
New job: Jacksonville offensive coordinator
Years at USC: 1

• Tim Davis
Old job: Offensive line coach
New job: Miami Dolphin line coach
Years at USC: 3

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