I’ve mentioned a few times on this blog that I’m still not comfortable seeing images from 9/11 especially the World Trade Center. Tears well up everytime I see a picture of the Twin Towers burning. It just brings out all sorts of emotions from that day.
Tonight, Inside 9/11 was on National Geographic Channel. I caught it right around the section where the Pentagon was just hit.
Apparently, this is an updated of the original. Being that I haven’t seen it the first time, I figured I’d watch it a bit. You know, get all the bits and pieces I didn’t know and/or remember. I thought it would be more like their Seconds from Disaster series where they deconstruct the chains of events in a more physical way than emotional. You know, the science behind what happened, like “this is what causes the building to collapse”, sort of thing. I didn’t expect the human story and survivor recounts.
They interviewed the widows of Flight 93 heroes, a fireman who survived the second tower, and many more. An ache gnawed at my heart.
“I don’t think I should be watching this,” I said to Brandon. One hand on the remote, the other over my face.
“Then change it,” he said.
I hesitated. “I can’t,” I said.
“I HAVE to watch this. I don’t want to forget.”
And there I was at the moment that the first tower began to collapse, hugging my knees on the couch. My eyes were on the TV as I watched in horror as if this just happened yesterday. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I could do nothing to stop them.
“People just forget about this so soon,” said Brandon.
No one can cope with such thing. No preparation can help someone go through this easier.