I dread the flight tonight in many ways.
First, I’m scared to see mom.Â I’m scared to face the reality that everyone else back home has been facing for so long.Â I’m scared that I wouldn’t be able to handle it and fall apart all over the place.Â I’m scared that I may not want to leave her side.
I’m just fucking scared.Â Period.
And then, I’m scared my eardrums are going to blow up due to my serious sinus infection.
Heck, my ears had trouble equalizing coming down 34 floors earlier today.Â I’m still taking my Sudafed, Tylenol and Airborne religiously.Â I just bought me a pair of EarPlanes, filtered earplugs that are supposed to be helpful with flights.Â I tried them on and thinking maybe I should get the adult size ones.Â May be just have to pick that up on the way out, along with Afrin nasal spray on the way out because I totally forgot to pick that up a while ago.
On top of all of that, the antibiotics make me a little queasy.Â And my body, since it’s still putting up a damn good fight against the infection, feels zapped of energy every hour or so.Â I would be finishing up packing and wham! I’m out for the count.Â As the matter of fact, I just woke up.Â And I’m about to go take another nap.
The next blog will be from home.Â Hopefully, I will still have my hearing.Â And sanity.
See you guys on the other side!