The Day

The first anniversary of my mom’s passing is here. My heart is heavy. I picked up red roses, her favorite, at the Farmer’s market yesterday. Looking at them in the elevator, tears welled up. But I didn’t cry. Brandon held me this morning before he left for work. I didn’t want to wake up this morning. I just want to stay asleep. But I did wake up. I had to. Somebody has to put the roses in a vase for mom. I talked to my dad a while ago. The entire crew of aunties and the family went to the...
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New sensation

I was dreading sleep for some reasons last night.  So I posted. I checked my stats. I googled OakMonster and found some interesting things.  I milled around a while longer. I was tired but I didn’t want to go to sleep.  There was no reason why I shouldn’t be asleep.  I just didn’t want to go lay down. I finally did lay down.  But my heart was pounding as if I had just did a session of cardio.  For no reason what so ever.  And I couldn’t calm down. Anxiety attack, apparently is the the internet diagnosis. I don’t know...
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Holy Blogger

I have gone to private Catholic school all my life, so it wasn’t a surprise to find that both of my best friends on both sides of the world are Catholic.  Nora is here, and Joy is back home. Joy has always said that I should’ve been her mom’s daughter too.  Both of us are too “westernized” for our times. Both of us prefer to express ourselves in English most times.  Both of us also like to write. Joy and Mary/Mommy–as I call Joy’s mom–contacted me a few months back about getting Mommy’s English translation of her original Thai edition...
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A 3.0 ain’t too bad

When you’re only one story off the ground. Was watching So You Think You Can Dance when it felt like a giant just tapped the house with his toes….or a Hummer just ran into our building.  It was a THUD that moved the couch and the window at the same time.  No swaying or anything. Enough already with the shaking!...
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Jeebus!

Earthquake! 5.8 magnitude in Chino Hills. We were all rocking and rolling all over the 34th floor over here. Not so much of the nervousness, but motion sick. Felt like I was on a boat. Twitter reports from Long Beach. Family reports in from all over So Cal. Verizon is out. AT&T is out. My office phone I can’t even use. Fun. Oh, and yeah. I’m okay.  I did run over to the stand in the doorway.  Apparently I was the only one doing that…...
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Song of the Day

When you try your best but you don’t succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep Stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can’t replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above or down below When you’re too in love to let it go But if you never try you’ll never know...
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