I’ve mentioned a few times on this blog that I’m still not comfortable seeing images from 9/11 especially the World Trade Center. Tears well up everytime I see a picture of the Twin Towers burning. It just brings out all sorts of emotions from that day.

Tonight, Inside 9/11 was on National Geographic Channel. I caught it right around the section where the Pentagon was just hit.

Apparently, this is an updated of the original. Being that I haven’t seen it the first time, I figured I’d watch it a bit. You know, get all the bits and pieces I didn’t know and/or remember. I thought it would be more like their Seconds from Disaster series where they deconstruct the chains of events in a more physical way than emotional. You know, the science behind what happened, like “this is what causes the building to collapse”, sort of thing. I didn’t expect the human story and survivor recounts.

They interviewed the widows of Flight 93 heroes, a fireman who survived the second tower, and many more. An ache gnawed at my heart.

“I don’t think I should be watching this,” I said to Brandon. One hand on the remote, the other over my face.

“Then change it,” he said.

I hesitated. “I can’t,” I said.

“I HAVE to watch this. I don’t want to forget.”

And there I was at the moment that the first tower began to collapse, hugging my knees on the couch. My eyes were on the TV as I watched in horror as if this just happened yesterday. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I could do nothing to stop them.

“People just forget about this so soon,” said Brandon.

Indeed.