Not much else I need

It goes something like this. An eager kitten entangling your feet as you walk across the courtyard…to get her some treats no less. (I’m thinking, “If I trip and hit my head on the pavement and bleed to death, you will NOT get your treat, cat.) El Pollo Loco Caesar Bowl for dinner. Surprisingly filling. No clean up. (I did order a flan but I haven’t eaten it…yet.) A fuzzy robe. (Who needs pants anyway!) A glass of pinot noir. A quiet apartment. A brand new subscription to Napster. Oh dear god. Music I WANT. At my command! It is...
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Does yours do that?

I just wrote an email to my brothers.  It goes something like this: You don’t know what it is at first but suddenly your heart flutters and you feel like you couldn’t catch your breath.  Then your heart sinks.  It feels so heavy as if it’s pulling your shoulders the floor along with itself.  Anxiety attack?  Sounds like it.  But it isn’t. But then tears well up in your eyes, and you realize it’s mom you’re missing.  What you feel is a hole left by her absence. And then you cry.  Sometimes the whole sinking heart thing goes away.  Sometime...
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Dream a little dream

…of mom. Apparently, mom has been paying a visit to a few of us here and there. Last week, I woke up sobbing hysterically and freaked the hell out of Brandon.  After a long crazy dream about me being a failure (..something about burning something on the stove top when all I had to do was reheating a frozen block of soup, someone came into the house with a pet meerkat, and everyone was looking at me as if I just came off the short bus for burning that fucking soup…), I somehow ended up in a mall with my...
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Time travel

I was up at 6:30 a.m. this morning.  Jet lag is getting better! I did end up getting to work at 6 a.m. on Thursday morning.  LOL. I drove in and left promptly at 3 p.m. and miraculously got home without killing myself.  I did steal a solid hour of nap later in the afternoon though.  How solid?  I started the nap laying on the couch.  When Brandon came in to wake me up, I was sitting and I had no idea how I got there.  Yeah…interesting, isn’t it? But a sleepy Thursday worked out to my advantage as I...
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On my way

Getting ready to leave the house for the airport now.  We’re waiting on my brother. Let me just say that I have never gotten choked up leaving the house before.  And here I am, teary-eyed just thinking about it. It seems the past few years, the house has never been the same.  Mom was sick back then. The change was the fact that we didn’t have her out and about with us much.  Then mom got sicker, but she was still able to converse a bit.  The last time, the house once again went empty with a little bit of...
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