I was dreading sleep for some reasons last night.Â So I posted. I checked my stats. I googled OakMonster and found some interesting things.Â I milled around a while longer.
I was tired but I didn’t want to go to sleep.Â There was no reason why I shouldn’t be asleep.Â I just didn’t want to go lay down.
I finally did lay down.Â But my heart was pounding as if I had just did a session of cardio.Â For no reason what so ever.Â And I couldn’t calm down.
Anxiety attack, apparently is the the internet diagnosis.
I don’t know what I was anxious about.Â I don’t know if that was why I didn’t want to go to sleep.Â I didn’t know what to do either.
So I grabbed Snoopy and I started singing “Que Sera, Sera” in my head.
Oddly enough, I calmed down and eventually went to sleep.
I think somewhere in the back of my head I was afraid to go to sleep because I didn’t want the day to end.Â Â I didn’t want to see tomorrow because it’s one day closer to mom’s anniversary.
I don’t know what to do when that day comes.Â And I’m a little afraid of it.